I have been into star trek since i was a child (i dont really talk about it on here bc it’s not that important) and i love strange new worlds. All the other new series felt like a chore, discovery was immensely frustrating but i am so sad the second second of snw ended today (and on a cliffhanger!). I love it to the point i get mad at people who are mad abt it when i browse the tags here (mostly hardcore TOS fans, which i am not too crazy abt). I love it to the point it might be my second favourite trek after ds9.
i used to even fantasize about having a wedding when i was younger and then i realized when i witnessed people around me get married how it’s all bullshit and even the ceremony itself would make me anxious. it’s bullshit especially when the emphasis isn’t even on celebration of love but inviting as many people as one can and having professional pictures taken. and do i really need to be under a legal contract with someone to celebrate our love? is that celebration of love? i mean i might make a legal contract with someone i share a home with someday purely for practical reasons but i won’t associate it with our love or partnership. sorry i sound like someone who time travelled from the 90s. i think queer people and feminists had some good ideas on marriage but somehow the message got lost.
what happened to the whole anti-marriage movement? why is nobody anti-marriage anymore for ideological reasons? please someone tell me i’m not the only one.
(of course not speaking about committed relationships, i am in one, i just don’t see the reasoning to have a wedding, get married etc except for maybe legal reasons).
maybe i shouldnt have included bound as new queer cinema film in my thesis even though i have the arguments to. i think in retrospect, also taking into consideration lana and lilly’s transition, in treatment of the themes it’s an unrecognized new queer cinema film. that’s why i included it with the living end and swoon. bc im convinced it belongs there. but im so scared of getting hit with arguments about financing.
multiple academic articles agree with me and that it was disregarded bc lilly and lana haven’t come out yet. Do you know Bound had Susie Bright choreographing / coordinating the sex scenes?
maybe i shouldnt have included bound as new queer cinema film in my thesis even though i have the arguments to. i think in retrospect, also taking into consideration lana and lilly’s transition, in treatment of the themes it’s an unrecognized new queer cinema film. that’s why i included it with the living end and swoon. bc im convinced it belongs there. but im so scared of getting hit with arguments about financing.
I received a lot of help in June but much less since, I’ve been hovering around the $2,000 mark for a long time so I decided to reformat and explain things a bit more.
I’m trying to fundraise to fix my teeth. This is one of those things we don’t think about usually but tooth problems can cause chronic and severe infection leading to
Constant fatigue malaise
extreme pain
bone loss
facial disfigurement
nerve damage
sepsis
heart problems (usually because the infection travelled from the tooth to the heart via the blood stream)
One of my infections was so bad I had to get some of the surrounding bone removed, so it was an extremely close call. At any time an infected tooth can affect the heart via the bloodstream. This can be deadly. I spent months barely able to get out of bed not realising it was because of several latent infections
Besides the health issues my teeth are putting me at risk for, food is part of almost every part of our lives. I can’t have dinner with my family. I can’t go out to eat with my friends. Every day I have to work out how I’m going to get food into my stomach because I have no molars in my jaw to chew with. I urgently need this work done;
A partial denture, to replace the molars removed from my jaw ($3,000)
Four crowns to stop me losing my four front top teeth ($8,000 or $2,000 per tooth)
At least one, and almost certainly multiple, root canals as well as fillings (at least $1,000)
My dentist is going to email me an estimate this week, but it’s almost certainly going to cost $11,000 minimum, probably more
I know it’s a lot of money and I’m doing my best to save but it’s very difficult as a disabled student with kids. My youngest especially is missing out on things because all our money is going towards this.
But without this treatmentI’ll suffer more infections, more broken teeth, more extractions, and likely more health complications, and more severe ones
My bio dad doesn’t speak to me because my kids are trans and my mother disowned me after she scammed me with a car loan and I refused to continue giving her money. You’re all I’ve got.
As you may know I’ve received the Vajrayana Buddhist Ngakpa ordination and I can perform prayers, pujas and other practices in thanks for your help (if you would like that)
Chris and I broke up and while I don’t think he’s the vindictive type - we broke up briefly in 2020 and he didn’t ask me to move out or even start charging me for my phone that’s in his name - maybe use the official fundraiser rather than his PayPal just so I don’t have to keep asking him to send me the money anyway
